School has started again and so has my little girl scout troop. My oldest child, my daisy, is now in first grade! I can't believe it. She was so excited to begin a new class and luckily she had a few of her old classmates in her new class to help ease the transition.
With first grade comes nightly homework, and weekly tests and book reports. Which has been a huge change for all of us, especially for my little Charlotte. She doesn't like not being right in the middle of everything. Spelling tests are weekly now, with 10-15 words a week. Normally she does just fine thankfully, but we have started my dads old tried and true flashcard method. Even though she is only 6 she already has an amazing standard that she holds herself to. Which can be great, but also has led to some tears already this school year.
She still loves Girl Scouts and though we lost a few girls to other activities this year, we gained a few as well. Making new friends is a lot of what Girl Scouts is about anyway! This will be her last year as a Daisy. She is so impatient to become a brownie next year in second grade! I can't believe I have been a leader for 8 months now. I wonder how far I will go with the troop, and how far my daughter will go with scouts. We are having a fall fundraiser, selling Nuts and Candies, and Magazines. I don't expect to do as well as we did with cookies, after all everyone knows and loves Girl Scout Cookies!! However, Jasmine has made her own goal to sell 50. I only made the per girl goal of 25, which is what it takes to get the participation patch.
Charlotte also began a new journey, preschool! The first day of preschool is so scary, but Charlotte handled it like a pro. She has made some 'friends' in her school not just in her class. I think she will be very social as she gets older. Now I just need to get her back into a dance class. If I felt like I had the time to work it into our schedule.
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Merging two schedules together was fairly easy with just my husband and I. Then we had Jasmine and I never went back to work, so it was barely two schedules. I loved being with her every minute to watch her grow and learning every thing. Watching first hand and seeing her experiencing so many things for the first time was just amazing. I am so thankful that its worked out for me to stay home with her. Which was much different then we had planned, but ended up working just perfectly. Then we had our second child as life we on, it become more complicated merging schedules. My oldest was in preschool when I had Charlotte, and she loved school even then. I seamed able to bring my new baby along where ever we went. Charlotte really has been a happy little girl. Life was moving along just fine.
Now with preschool I have two school schedules to merge into my husbands work and my family schedules. Having both kids out of the house for two whole (if I'm lucky 2 1/2 hours) to myself. Being a stay at home mom has been wonderful for my family, don't get me wrong. However, some days I feel completely isolated from the world. These days, I feel like I am always rushing to drop off and pick up someone. Then throw in small daily and necessary visits like dentist, haircuts, soccer and piano lessons, often I feel like I am going crazy.
On the first day of both girls being in school I didn't even know what to do! I drove around turning left, then realizing I should go right to go return this, and no left, I should go to the grocery store. Imagine going to a grocery store by myself! The separation really set it. I had been telling everyone how good it would be for Charlotte to start school at 3. When I realized I didn't know how to be anything but 'Mommy'. I feel strange when I go to the store, no one is paying me any attention. With my girls everyday someone would watch my girls and smile, or say how cute (or pretty their dress was...etc.) and alone, no one cared! When I see other little girls, I am drawn into them, admiring their outfits and cute faces. I am reminded of my own, and long for them in a surprising way. I miss my kids for a few hours? I thought I was pulling out my hair, needed a break from them and I miss them. The truth remains I love my girls no matter how much they drive me nuts.
So, I have had the time, to get my car fixed, working AC is a necessity this time of year! Able to get a haircut, and shop for shoes for an upcoming family wedding. I still find myself rushing though things, but I have also realized its ok for me to take a little time for me too. Some days I don't do that much during the two hours other then dishes and or laundry and vacuum. And that's ok too. I have started to do some soul searching which often feels like despair, but I am looking to find what to do now. I know now, I do want to go back to work. I have more then I few ideas what I want to do, but no real plan on how to get to any of them. My brain has been stuck in mommy mode for too long. I talked myself into starting the troop for my daughter hoping it would help lead me to a more social mommy life. Its time for 'me' to come back out, and writing is a great way to help get the gears moving. I want to discover something I am passionate about, and go from there. Oh, and it has to fit into my small window of time I have to give. Who knows where I may find myself in 6-12 months from now, but I am aiming for a new path then the one I am on now.
With first grade comes nightly homework, and weekly tests and book reports. Which has been a huge change for all of us, especially for my little Charlotte. She doesn't like not being right in the middle of everything. Spelling tests are weekly now, with 10-15 words a week. Normally she does just fine thankfully, but we have started my dads old tried and true flashcard method. Even though she is only 6 she already has an amazing standard that she holds herself to. Which can be great, but also has led to some tears already this school year.
She still loves Girl Scouts and though we lost a few girls to other activities this year, we gained a few as well. Making new friends is a lot of what Girl Scouts is about anyway! This will be her last year as a Daisy. She is so impatient to become a brownie next year in second grade! I can't believe I have been a leader for 8 months now. I wonder how far I will go with the troop, and how far my daughter will go with scouts. We are having a fall fundraiser, selling Nuts and Candies, and Magazines. I don't expect to do as well as we did with cookies, after all everyone knows and loves Girl Scout Cookies!! However, Jasmine has made her own goal to sell 50. I only made the per girl goal of 25, which is what it takes to get the participation patch.
Charlotte also began a new journey, preschool! The first day of preschool is so scary, but Charlotte handled it like a pro. She has made some 'friends' in her school not just in her class. I think she will be very social as she gets older. Now I just need to get her back into a dance class. If I felt like I had the time to work it into our schedule.
.JPG)
Merging two schedules together was fairly easy with just my husband and I. Then we had Jasmine and I never went back to work, so it was barely two schedules. I loved being with her every minute to watch her grow and learning every thing. Watching first hand and seeing her experiencing so many things for the first time was just amazing. I am so thankful that its worked out for me to stay home with her. Which was much different then we had planned, but ended up working just perfectly. Then we had our second child as life we on, it become more complicated merging schedules. My oldest was in preschool when I had Charlotte, and she loved school even then. I seamed able to bring my new baby along where ever we went. Charlotte really has been a happy little girl. Life was moving along just fine.
Now with preschool I have two school schedules to merge into my husbands work and my family schedules. Having both kids out of the house for two whole (if I'm lucky 2 1/2 hours) to myself. Being a stay at home mom has been wonderful for my family, don't get me wrong. However, some days I feel completely isolated from the world. These days, I feel like I am always rushing to drop off and pick up someone. Then throw in small daily and necessary visits like dentist, haircuts, soccer and piano lessons, often I feel like I am going crazy.
On the first day of both girls being in school I didn't even know what to do! I drove around turning left, then realizing I should go right to go return this, and no left, I should go to the grocery store. Imagine going to a grocery store by myself! The separation really set it. I had been telling everyone how good it would be for Charlotte to start school at 3. When I realized I didn't know how to be anything but 'Mommy'. I feel strange when I go to the store, no one is paying me any attention. With my girls everyday someone would watch my girls and smile, or say how cute (or pretty their dress was...etc.) and alone, no one cared! When I see other little girls, I am drawn into them, admiring their outfits and cute faces. I am reminded of my own, and long for them in a surprising way. I miss my kids for a few hours? I thought I was pulling out my hair, needed a break from them and I miss them. The truth remains I love my girls no matter how much they drive me nuts.
So, I have had the time, to get my car fixed, working AC is a necessity this time of year! Able to get a haircut, and shop for shoes for an upcoming family wedding. I still find myself rushing though things, but I have also realized its ok for me to take a little time for me too. Some days I don't do that much during the two hours other then dishes and or laundry and vacuum. And that's ok too. I have started to do some soul searching which often feels like despair, but I am looking to find what to do now. I know now, I do want to go back to work. I have more then I few ideas what I want to do, but no real plan on how to get to any of them. My brain has been stuck in mommy mode for too long. I talked myself into starting the troop for my daughter hoping it would help lead me to a more social mommy life. Its time for 'me' to come back out, and writing is a great way to help get the gears moving. I want to discover something I am passionate about, and go from there. Oh, and it has to fit into my small window of time I have to give. Who knows where I may find myself in 6-12 months from now, but I am aiming for a new path then the one I am on now.
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